WesCoast ArtisticModel2 turned 2 today!
WesCoast ArtisticModel2 turned 2 today!
It’s hard to deal with the foolishness of others, but at the same time, you have to keep your game face on…despite the bullshit people throw at you on a constant basis.
Trying something a bit different…I’m doing this to show the stupid nature of the private shots that were shown of the Hollywood industry’s A-list female talent. It’s crazy that someone would take the time to hack into the files for personal gain, or just fulfill a fantasy…but nonetheless, whoever did what they did proved a point…but the point I’m making? There are other things that are far more important than nudity. Even if it is of one who is a celebrity, it is still unimportant, when we have so much more important things of a human/societal nature to deal with…For starters…the drought in California, the issues of civil rights that are slowly being swept under the rug, the issues in the middle east and the growing rise of hate towards the US, especially when its citizens have nothing to do with diplomacy, but yet with the powers that be consider it important to be concerned about a celebrity’s leaked photos than what is really happening out there…? Really?!
Well, here is my own leaked photo…Let us see how people react to it…the US and its puritanical issues with nudity?… I call it frivolous because as I stated before, there are far more important issues out there. It is distracting the average person who isn’t used to seeing things of this nature, but as I said… No comment on the matter…I’m just trying to prove a point…It’s wrong for a person to show any skin, but yet, people are getting away with things far more drastic? That doesn’t make any sense…I guess that is what my point is…Nothing is starting to make sense anymore in this world.
I did this to prove a point…Nudity is the LEAST of the people’s concerns when there are far bigger things to deal with! Everyone has them somewhere somehow within a cell phone or a computer, or a cloud!!!
The bottom line is this: One can join with the puritanical point of view and close yourself off while the rest of the world is spiraling out of control, or decide to do something that will make a difference and positively move forward from there…
Dreaming II (blue hue)
Date: June 1, 2013
Coming to some realizations over the last few days, some good, and some not so good…nonetheless realizations…I’m still bothered by missed opportunities, and also I still feel haunted by my past as a child.
In terms of missed opportunities? Hmmm…I’ll just mention some of the chances I had as an actor, and the audition process…which was less than to be desired at the time…I wonder if I had been on top of my game and not distracted by the stupid decisions with women I made, would I be further along in my entertainment career? I don’t know. I just feel like I missed out on a lot of things when I wasn’t focused properly. Also, my personality wasn’t as strong at the time, but it was strong enough not to fall for the bullshit of people…most of the time.
As far as my childhood goes? Let’s just say I still think about that confrontation with my mother when I was 10yrs old and called her out on her infidelity. I wonder if she hadn’t gone down that road, would our relationship be better? I don’t know. I do know that there is still a schism between us, that I have been working on getting out of my system for some time. It’s difficult, but I know that I will get it out eventually. May not be completely, but I will get the majority of the issues out of my system when the time comes. After all, I have to lay my demons to rest at some point in my life before I pass on in the future.
Just doing a lot of thinking these days.
Yesterday was the culmination of years of Faith, studying, hitting the pavement, sacrifice, hard work, blood, sweat and tears (in that order)…I was on the set of the show, and considering what had happened the night before: a tenant’s wife and her unborn twins passed on, and I got the script literally less than 8 hours before setting foot on stage (which left almost no prep time)…I had to maintain my Faith and Focus…no matter what was going on around me. The timing couldn’t have been worse, and I do feel bad for my tenants, but, I had to maintain myself and study and remained focus. No matter what…Easier said than done, but I had to do it.
Flash forward 8 hours later…standing on set was the dream about to finally kick in: a supporting part in a show with actual dialog! For years I had dreamed of this moment…and I was nervous but excited at the same time! They gave me a dressing room to rehearse, and I was ready and off book to do the scene! Then…the unthinkable happened…Literally as the scene started, and I got through the first line, and half-way through the second line…I drew a blank! I almost killed my time on that show from the panic on my face…Fortunately, the main lead of the show pulled me to the side and had me breathe and relax…as he told me on set - “You got this and you know the words…relax…” We were able to continue and finish the scene afterwards, but believe me…I was very, very grateful for his assistance and the stage manager’s assistance as well…Nothing and I mean NOTHING can prepare you for the things that can throw off your focus and blank out! As the star mentioned it to me…it happens to the best of us. It almost reminds me of the show “24” first season, and watching one of the lead stars lose his lines in the middle of a scene…I couldn’t understand it what could throw his focus off?…Now…I understand…from a professional standpoint…I understand…You can be well versed, trained and prepared, but nothing can prepare you for losing your focus and lines in a split second. Life has a way of doing that at times at the least opportune moment.
The most important factor is to have Faith and trust your instincts and go through it. Stopping and quitting isn’t an issue. After all, you may never get that chance again. My acting teacher once told me years ago by a code I live by: “You get one take, one chance, and one life…You better make it a good one because with things of this nature, there aren’t any second chances!”
I thank God for that opportunity. I won’t fail. I can’t afford to do so, with so much at stake!
It’s been weird on this end as of late. I’m enjoying a bit of down time before things get crazy on this end. We also had a film release today, and it should do okay at the box office…I’m just in an indifferent mood today. I still don’t feel like I have control of certain aspects of my career, but I am making headway. I recently booked an episode on a TV show, and I am very thankful for the work. I honestly thought I didn’t do my best at the audition…but I was very wrong. I’m glad I was wrong…
I’m just taking in the moment for the time being. I’m happy for the new TV gig…I’m just in a mellow mood right now.